touch

Touch ~ to come in contact with so as to feel.

I miss his touch, this morning. Even though I want curl up into a ball and cry all day. I have to suck it up. Feeling sorry for myself just does not happen when you have a family to take care of. Suppressed emotions, probably not the most healthy way to deal with this. I can hardly wait for when they all get released... LOOK OUT!

It has been 7 months!

The first half of this deployment; Jay and I got to see each other (in Seattle) after 2-1/2 months of being apart. Then another 2-1/2 months of being apart he was able to come home on leave. Well... we are now almost to the 2-1/2 mark for a third time and there is no seeing each other. This last half of the deployment seems to be going very slow.

Last night I talked to Jay, for about 10 minutes to give him a quick update and then the office was filling up with people. He feels limited as to what he can say, the conversation is over. It is nice to talk on the phone and to skype, but there is no privacy. There is always people around Jay and he feels like he cannot talk. As a woman you would think that a one sided conversation would be great.. and to add to this I KNOW HE IS LISTENING and not reading the news paper! however this is not the case. E-mail is the only way we can really share our thoughts/feelings, and then one wonders who's reading that? everything goes through a filter... understandably so; they are at war.

Psalm 30:5
Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.

After I wrote this entry, I checked my e-mail and this is what I got from Jay...

Hi Honey,

How is your day going? I am closing my eyes and imagining I am smothering you with kisses XXXXXOXOXOXOOX! I sure miss just holding and cuddling with you! I am just about done for the day. I am praying for perfect health for you and the kids! That is to funny I am just sending you an e-mail and one comes in from you! Love YOU BABE!!!XXXOO~~XXOO!

SSG Jay Harmon